Monday, January 19, 2015

I'm still fat.

Despite all the efforts, I am still fat. Actually I am fatter than when I started this blog.

190 lbs.
Chest: 41"
Waist: 33.75"
Hips: 44.5"

199 lbs.
Chest: 43"
Waist: 35"
Hips: 45.3"

My problem?  Well, I have several.

  1. I rarely finish anything I start. P90x = nope. Advocare 24 day challenge = yes, but only for those 24 days and I didn't give 100%. YMCA membership = sparingly and definitely not enough to yield results. Paleo eating = only at dinner and probably only 3 times a week (but that's better than never).
SOLUTION: Pick ONE things to stick to for 30 days then reevaluate. 30 days is doable.
  1. I don't move. For Christmas this year, my loving mother gave me a Fitbit. It motivated me for the first two weeks and now it just screams "See how lazy you are!". I average 2500 steps per day which equals about a mile. It's pretty much less than sedentary. It's 60 steps from my front door to my bedroom to give you perspective. 2500 steps is nothing.
SOLUTION: Stop being mad at the Fitbit and embrace it.
  1. What I eat has improved, but how much I eat still needs some work. For me to maintain my weight at my "sit on my fat ass" active level, I can only eat 1839 calories per day. The average "normal weight" woman consumes 1940 calories per day. I eat less than the average. WHAT? In order to be lazy I need to lower my calorie intake to less than 1500 calories which I have actually tried. I can maintain it for around five days then my body screams and I eat everything in sight. 
SOLUTION: Try 1600 per day with a cheat day.
  1. Hear me all you twenty-somethings! Losing weight in your 30s is much harder than losing it in your twenties. I know, I didn't believe it either back then and thought I had all the time in the world to lose the weight, but unfortunately it is very true. Here's the proof: At 20, I got down to 151 lbs just by running one single mile per day three times a week. I didn't even change my eating habits. I was trying to get the attention of a guy at the gym and thought I might as well workout while I was there. In three months I lost 25 lbs. At 26, I cut my calories to 1800 per day (yep, what I do right now) and dropped 20 lbs. That was over five months, but still pretty dang good. I am 32 and I have been maintaining an 1800 calories per day average since October (3 months) and have only lost 4 lbs. 
SOLUTION: Stop being mad at yourself for gaining the weight back and make sure you aren't still dealing with this at 40. If it's hard now, just imagine.
  1. It's all my mama's fault! Yes, genetics do play a role and environmental plays an even bigger role. When I was a fat kid at fourteen, I wanted to lose weight so mom would include a case of Diet Pepsi with the several boxes of Swiss Cake Rolls she bought me. Umm, thanks. Guess what? She moved in with me a year and a half ago and still makes weight loss difficult. Do you know how hard it is to reject a box of Girl Scout cookies when they have already been opened and handed to you? To her food makes me happy and she wants me to be happy. To me, it feels like sabotage. I ask for "bad" foods to not enter our kitchen (she can keep her stash in her room), because at the end of some days my willpower is completely drained. She doesn't respect my request and keeps trying to make me happy with food. I have no solution for this except to make my willpower stronger. 
SOLUTION: Be strong then celebrate... each and every time it occurs. Accept that it's not going to stop because Mom clearly has her own food issues.

I am hoping to update more regularly here and use it more as a journal. I need to get to the bottom of my blocks and emotional attachment to food. That is the only way I am going to win at this long-term. 

Thursday, February 13, 2014

Five months later...

It has been five months since I did the Advocare 24-day challenge. I still 100% recommend it.

My measurements have not changed much in the past five months, but that is completely my fault. I felt FANTASTIC after the challenge then the holidays came.  Thanksgiving was fine. I let myself cheat just a little bit for Thanksgiving dinner; otherwise, I am really proud of myself. However, the "Christmas season" arrived and brought with it all kinds of temptations. I tried to stick to my one cheat per week rule, but failed miserably. Then I got upset that I was failing so bad and gave up. Over the next three weeks I almost lost all the progress I had made.  It is SO much easier to gain weight than it is to lose it. Ugh!  Giving up physically made me feel horrible.  Sugar, dairy, carbs galore!!!  How did I survive feeling that way before the challenge?  I have no idea.  So Jan 2nd I did another 24 day challenge.  My results were not as dramatic the second time, but who cares when you end up feeling fantastic again! I am back down to where I was in September...

My problem now it's so much the food as it is my level of activity.  Why am I so lazy?  I signed up for DailyBurn and can't even bring myself to do the program with 15 minute workouts.  I am too tired to do it before work and when I get home at night I just want to eat dinner and spend time with my husband. L-A-Z-Y!

I have to get a grip though... I will be 32 this year.  My dad had his first heart attack at 42.  I am only ten years away so if I don't start now then chances are I will end up just like him.  I really don't want that... but why isn't that motivation enough?  I am stuck and just need to decide to move forward instead of analyzing it to death. I swear it's a stall tactic.

What hang ups keep you stuck?

Saturday, September 28, 2013

Holy What Happened?!?! 24 Day Challenge Results

So, I said I would blog every day of the 24 day challenge and clearly I didn't make it. I am sorry to anyone out there in internet space that was counting on me.

I would count the 24 Day challenge as a definite success.  I lost a total of 11.5 inches and 8 lbs. However, I don't feel like the 8 lbs accurately reflects my changes.  I have a new body composition.  I am able to pull clothes out from the back of my closet that I haven't been able to wear in almost two years. The best way to show you my results is to SHOW you my results. Here they are:

I am really proud of my results; however, I can't help, but think "What if..." What if I had exercised too?  What if I had stuck to the plan better (I had some flubs during the second phase)? What if... What if... Good news is that I can do the challenge every 90 days if I wanted.  I completely intend on doing just that. Next time I am not going to allow anything to hold me back. No What Ifs!  The husband is currently on the challenge so I will let you guys know how it goes for him! He is really getting on board and I am so proud of him!

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Day 11: 24 Day Challenge + Weigh In!


I lost 3.2 pounds in 10 days.  Not a fantastic feat, but I am happy.  I feel great and I lost a good amount of inches. To me that is proof that the scale lies!!!  and how important it is to take measurements.
But first... before and after photos.  You may not be able to tell much of a difference, but I can!

Weight: 200.2 lbs
Chest: 42.5"
Waist: 35"
Hips: 45.5"

My results are not as dramatic as some of the people in my challenge group.  One lady lost 10 pounds in 10 days!  My coach says that I am not eating enough... She is probably right.  However, I feel like I am really building muscle and the pictures don't lie.  I can't wait until the pictures from Day 24!

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Day 10: 24 day challenge

Recap: I woke up feeling tired this morning but otherwise fairly well... Until I got out of the bed. I was so dizzy I ran into the wall. First thing I did was check my blood pressure since I am prone to it dropping. It was normal. I called my coach. She said the only way it could be challenge related is if I am not eating enough. She said to eat more and take an allergy pill. I know I have been eating enough but I followed her directions anyway. By 4pm I could walk to the bathroom by myself. For dinner I decided to have brown rice... Either that did the trick or the allergy medicine finally kicked in (doubt it). I was trying to remember the last time I ate a complex carb... Pretty sure it was a week ago. The advocare eating plan suggests complex carbs atleast once per day. Oops. I won't make that mistake again.

Since today is Day 10 then it is the final day of the cleanse phase! I drank my last fiber drink. Yay!

Monday, September 2, 2013

Day Nine: 24 day challenge

Life got busy and I forgot to post!!! Nothing exciting happened though. Still feel good. Still waking up without my alarm (Amazing!). Day Nine went well although I did spend a little extra time in the bathrrom. Damn you sensitive stomach! Damn you fiber drink! That makes keep wonder if people with IBS can do he challenge. Hmm...

I finally went to the gym on Day 8 and then forgot to go on Day Nine. Oops. I have been a tad distracted. I know terrible excuse. My coach says that my energy level will go through the roof in the max phase and I will want to go to the gym more. We will see...

Friday, August 30, 2013

Day Six: 24 Day Challenge


Three things happened to me today of which I am pretty excited!

#1 - I woke up this morning and my alarm had not gone off yet. I figured it was still early and rolled over to go back to sleep. But I couldn't fall back to sleep. I realized my phone had died in the middle of the night because my charger is acting up. So I got up to check the time. I should have been up 15 minutes earlier. I did not get upset. I got happy and excited. My body woke itself up when it was supposed to!!! This has not happened in years. I have a sleep disorder that has interfered all my life but it got worse about five years ago. I am the girl who sleeps THROUGH the alarm clock not the girl that gets up without one. But not today..

#2 - My friend from whom I purchased the 24 day challenge bundle checked in on me and so did her mentor... Later today the mentor's mentor checked on me. Today I realized that Advocare is a family... A support group... A unit. Today The company earned my respect. I thought I was just buying product but so much more comes with it. Friends, a healthy lifestyle, a financial opportunity... I feel myself getting sucked in and I am pretty excited about it.

#3 - I hate Squash. Despise it. It doesn't matter how it is cooked. Gross... My mom made it for dinner despite my dislike. So I put a little on my plate. We had the 3 bite rule growing up, and you know how peope revert back around their parents. Uh yeah... Its true. Anyway, I loved it! What!?!? My taste buds must have changed in only 6 days. I am so proud of my taste buds!

All the excitement of the day wore me out... Nite!

Thursday, August 29, 2013

Day Five: 24 day challenge

I am feeling much better each and every day. I only slept 6 hours last night but was able to stay awake all day. Yes, I know... I should sleep more during the week.

Life has been so busy that I haven't made it to the gym at all this challenge and I am really upset about it. I have done some strength training at home but no cardio. I have a meeting tomorrow night so that is a no go. I really hope I still get good results despite this set back.

Has anyone done the challenge? What should I expect?

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Day Four: 24 Day Challenge


RECAP: I am feeling pretty good today! No fiber drink is a plus.  I didn't get enough sleep last night, but never feel asleep at my desk (I usually do when I get less than 6 hours).  I am really loving having Spark on a regular basis.  It is so much better than soda.  It wakes me up but I don't feel bloated and burp like I do with soda. But I already knew that I loved Spark.  I may become an Advocare member just for the discount and I never want to go without Spark again!

I am debating as to whether or not I want to weigh tomorrow or wait until Day 10.  I am really curious if the cleanse is working (other than making me feel better).  We will see how I feel in the morning.

I was told that Day 14 is when you really start to tell a difference in the way you feel.  I am excited to get there to see if it is true!

Nothing interesting really happened today.  My boss was extra annoying today... my cat was extra cute... Some times uneventful days are just fine.

Until tomorrow...

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Day Three: 24 Day Challenge


RECAP: I woke up to freak-outs by co-workers.  Yes, there is a deadline today, but there is no reason to wake me up at 6am about it. This got me off to rough start.  It set my whole routine back. I didn't drink my spark and take the catalyst until an hour after I woke up.  I didn't even eat breakfast at all and the dreaded fiber drink became my morning snack. Yuck! I am so glad that I get a break from that stuff!

For lunch I had leftovers from last night, Stuffed Bell Peppers. Yum!

For dinner I made Pan-Seared Salmon seasoned with cinnamon and chili powder.  It was also yum! Thank you, Martha Stewart. Here is the link if you are interested! To show support, my mom is helping by cooking three days a week. I work really long days in the office on Tuesday - Friday, so I get really tempted for fast food on those days. My husband cooks on Wednesday since its his off day. I am really thankful that my mom is willing to do that! Oh, and I only mention this because I won't have recipes for those days.

After dinner my muscle spasm headache came back and my husband says I complain too much. I say that I am just stating facts, but he calls it complaining. Whatever...

I am doing the challenge with a group of 17 others.  I have been told not to weigh or measure until day 10 (Day 5 if you just can't stand it), but a guy in our group said that he lost 4.6 pounds in these three days! What?!?!

The day ended well... I got back on track, ate well, and feel pretty good (again, other than my muscle spasm headache).  I am having a lot of difficulty craving sweets after dinner. I didn't realize how mentally dependent I was (I mean am... who am I kidding?) on that treat. Okay, time to take my herbal cleanse caplets and go off to bed!